Diva loves bullet points

These are merely my personal notes. I didn't get an opportunity to write this into anything more.

This was hand written the day after & I have typed it word for word - so please ignore all punctuation mistakes - I was merely putting words to paper.

I had an email a week ago {thanks Julz} asking for my notes - Here they are!!!!!

Monday 3rd June 2013


Arrival

• We meet outside his place.
• I’m excited driving to his house. Nervous. Actually really nervous. Weird as I haven’t felt like that since we first met. Shaking almost.
• Must be because I’m not sure if it’s the last after our last conversation. Never sure. 
• “Fuck Yeah” from Hulk. Another warm welcome. 

ChitChat 

• Alters from general, life, work, deep and back again. 
• Talk about the different roles he plays in work and life. Fits. Makes sense. 
• Always questioning his intentions with me in my head. Still feels right though. Even after the last time. Not sure why. Im sure it will make sense one day. 
• Talk about sex. Anal. What would I do if he just did it? Don’t really know. 
• Can feel my body changing. Getting anxious. Exciting. Finding words to explain this is impossible. 
• Continually mental slapping myself. Wake up. 

Bed 

• Generally it’s his call to go to bed. I’m ok with this. 
• Leg on me. Instantly want to touch back. Magnetic. 
• Hulk starts rubbing my breasts. Sends me into a hypnotic state. Strange. Mesmeric. My body answers everything. Feels like it’s following him yet guiding him at the same time. He knows! He knows exactly. I’m not sure at this moment what it is exactly I want… him inside me, an orgasm, a finger, more of what he is doing. He knows. 
• Adrenaline. Yet completely helpless. I know I have to get out of this zone. I’m learning how amazing and intense pleasure is when its delayed. But can I?
• A weaker orgasm & slight tremor from his rubbing my breasts simultaneously with his leg on my clit with slight pressure. I sit up and put his cock in my mouth. 
• Such pleasure. Makes and more horny. I love doing this. I wonder what bits of it he likes. What he doesn’t. I need to figure this out. I taste his precome. 
• 69. Him on top. It’s hard to get an actual movement when sucking him because of the angle but I enjoy just having him in my mouth. Intense. Inside me. Immense. 
• Try to concentrate on what I’m doing but as soon as his mouth goes near me, I go insane with wanting & needing. 
• The build up feels almost painful. I’m throbbing as it builds. My entire body heats. More this time than before. It’s hot. My breathing stops. He sucks on my clit. A white hot pleasurable heat floods my body. Head to toe. It travels around, sending my body into spasm. I can feel it travelling every time it gets to my outer body parts (fingers, toes, head, vagina) I expect it to leave my body. Hulk keeps sucking or licking… it continues to travel. This is fucking intense. I want to scream stop. I have no voice. I’m scared what my body is capable of. I need air. This is by far the longest and most intense climax I have had. 
• It's like I am a wind up toy. Wind wind wind. Let go, and it goes crazy, shaking, tension, mechanism, muscles go. Mush. 
• I have to voice ‘stop’.. I'm petrified, warm, relaxed, amped. 
• Hulk later tells me that at this stage I crossed my legs and lay there shaking. I am aware; I know my body is shuddering, I wonder how to stop myself. I eventually calm. Hulk remains by my side with his hang resting gently on my stomach. 
• He knows. He knows better than me. He continually tests me. Prying my legs open he inserts his fingers and I can instantly feel the pressure on my g. simultaneously he builds me back up. Winding. Winding. Explosions. 
• I’m still shuddering with pleasure as he enters me. It’s exactly what my body is craving. The connection … it calms my body and sends my mind onto another level. It’s like blank ecstasy with the physiological aspects. 
• The initial body calmness subsides as he penetrates me. The momentum is real. The moment has a level of pleasure. My body listens to my mind and I can feel the contractions beginning, a slight tremor. 
• One hand on my nipple, one on my clit and penetrating. Hulk explodes; he shudders and lightly groans his masculine release. At that moment I go as well, my body half off the bed I involuntary raise my head and scream ‘fuck’. 

· One word, explains everything..

Sharing?

Friday 31st May 2013

Hanging with Hulk is comfortable and secure, we don’t just have sex – we talk, we laugh, we share ourselves. We are on a similar path, neither of us entirely sure of what that is. We are similar people in nature – but are not by any measure the same, different. He is in my life for a reason, I am sure it will all make sense one day.

I am not really in the mood to write about this sex session - Hulk did mention that my vagina is changing and that as of last week my g-spot was a pea shaped lump, he now thinks it is growing, well .. spreading.

Hulk is suggesting that I sleep with someone else – He wants to know if he has unleashed something inside me and if sex will be this good with other partners now? Sex between us is different to anything I have experienced - my body reacts in extremes; it excessively shudders, tenses, twists, wriggles and can carry an orgasm for minutes with a solid climax or lots of intense bursts … then can go straight into another, sometimes more intense than the previous, sometimes in a completely different zone. Sometimes I could laugh, sometimes I could cry and sometimes I can’t even find my lungs to establish a breath. It’s like my brain and body are in argument, I am completely possessed as my body dominates the brain. Scary almost!

I can understand why his mind boggles, mine boggles too.
I do not want to be a sex experiment.  That is not my reason, maybe his? .. but not mine.

I’m sure sex with someone else will still be good, just different.
Like I say, it will make sense sooner or later.

Decent sex takes skill, great sex takes a connection – it’s far more cerebral.

Introducing Porn

Sunday 26th May 2013

Tonight Hulk suggests we watch some porn in bed. I’m keen; porn has always turned me on. Laying side by side the laptop in front of me I’m watching some blonde suck off a buff guy. Hulk is tenderly embracing me, like a warm security, my toes begin to tingle as I feel my arousal creeping up on me. I am not sure if it’s the porn I’m watching, or his touch, or both. His right hand begins to palm my stomach; I roll on my back and Hulks circles over my stomach and thigh, then my breasts. He isn’t watching the porn; his eyes are focused on me, on my body.

The smooth motion of his wandering feeling palm becomes interrupted as he passes over a stiffened nipple. Firmly he clasps my breast and his body urges to move closer, his mouth wraps around my nipple. Hulk gently rubs two fingers on either side of my clitoris, up and down, barely touching the button. Then he begins to rub, alternating between circles and strokes. He slides a finger inside and moves them around as my eyes close and swallow a deep growling moan. The pleasure rises in me; I have no need to watch the porn that is still flickering in the background. I lose my mind as the pleasure waves and crashes through my body, this orgasm is intense, I have no idea what is happening but I know Hulk is making it last a long time; he keeps going sending my body into spasm.

When my mind catches up with my body again (or is it my body catching up with my mind, I seem to lose them both) I almost instinctively hook my right leg over his body and he enters me on his side. I can feel the damp warmth between us; together we rock each other slowly. I swivel my hips at each thrust which feels fucking amazing. Hulk has one hand on my breast and is gently toying with my nipple, such an intense and satisfying friction. I loose myself again; this orgasm is deeper in my body than the previous. Moving on top of me he lies with his body pressed against mine, I could stay like this, feeling his heart pounding on me, holding him like a possession.

I can hear the moaning and slapping coming from the laptop; yet I have no interest in it whatsoever. I lick his shoulder and neck; I want to taste his reddened skin on my tongue while he is inside me. An electrifying bubbling inside me I hold him tightly as we slap together faster, my moaning builds, he feels me reaching but it is too much for him, with a groan he erupts all over my stomach, his body shuddering with each shock, each release.

The porn gets shut down quickly.

We lie in bed after and discuss how sex has changed for us both, what sex will be like for us after this? Hulk guides me through the longest, most intense & varying orgasms – all of which are beyond anything I thought was ever possible, and it continues to evolve and enhance every time. I have changed from someone who rarely had an orgasm, but still enjoyed sex for what it was, into someone who has multiple orgasms on top of multiple orgasms. Am I ruined? Hope not!! Hope it’s just the beginning of what’s to come. What a ride!!!

Shower Time

Saturday 11th, Sunday 12th & Saturday 18th were all incredible nights with Hulk. I was very busy over this time and didn't get much of an opportunity to write my entries, just notes ...

 

I will save the notes and give you my next entry instead ...

Friday 24th May 2013

 

 

I push open the shower door and a wave of steam pours out. Hulk has had the shower on hot. With his back to me, I step into the shower slowly and nervously – twisting around and making room for me he holds my body tight to his. We stand still holding each other with the water running down my back. My eyes are locked into this unfolding scene, my arousal steadily growing.

 

My lips gravitate towards Hulks sharp shoulders which are incredibly defined and ripped. My hands wander between his chiselled pecks and his awesome biceps. Hulk is hot, a well-crafted sex genius. Our lips lock, the water lubricates our mouths into a passionate and forceful kiss that tantalizers and weakens my knees. 

I lift my arms and hold the top of the shower for support. Hulk rubs the tip of his cock inside my slit several times coating it with my excitement. A jolt of pleasure flows through my body as he slips his cock in me, I instantly feel my vagina convulse around his shaft. He slowly penetrates upwards allowing my body to adjust to the position; my body filled with desire and delight. 

Picking up the speed I can feel my orgasm fast approaching, Hulk knows this and reacts with urgency, concentrating his angle on my g spot my body rocks against his cock; As I near the edge Hulk takes hold of my hips holding me tightly in place as he delivers his offering. My body quakes as my climax washes over me, wave upon wave or pure passion. Trembling I have to hold onto the facet of the shower to stop myself falling down.

 

Hulk slowly turns me around pushing forward and sliding his cock into me from behind. My body still shuddering with pleasure he holds my hips steady and begins the rhythm we both want so much. The slap of our skin providing the soundtrack, his balls spank against me with each trust. I know I am groaning and moaning unintelligibly, the only thing clear is my lust.

 

Faster and faster we move, to the point we simply cannot fuck any faster. My face is hitting up against the wall of the shower and I really don’t care. I can feel myself tighten and feel my breath matching to the thrust of hulks hips, he is pushing us both towards a shared orgasm. Hulk directs the hot water away, splashing some across my back.

 

I feel the grip of my walls clench and the wave of pleasure expand at the same moment as Hulk releases a short animal like groan and gives his final thrust before pulling out and squirting his cum all over my back. 

Allowing me to stand upright we both have to hold onto the top of the shower to center ourselves for a few moments. We get ready to go to bed, to get into bed and do it all again … & then again in the morning.

'No Diva Don't'

Friday 10th May 2013

It has been a week since I have seen Hulk.

Climbing into bed the game begins. Lying next to Hulk in just my underwear the air is instantly hot. Touching and exploring each other our breathing gets into rhythm, the magnet between us aligns. Hulk slides his leg between mine and I immediately start riding this thigh while he plays with my nipples and covers my body with his touch. Normally I would refer to this as ‘dry humping’ it is anything but, I am wet.

Hulk kisses down my chest, stomach and gently peaks his lips on my inner thighs. My body moves in sync with him as he passes his desire through his hands to my body. I am very horny as Hulk removes my panties and starts rubbing his dick around my pussy putting pressure on my clit. I try to guide him inside me - No Diva!

I don’t think I can do this. I can feel how hard he is, he could cut glass with his dick
Hulk ups the anti and starts adding pressure to all the right spots. Fuck he is good! Playing with my clit he gets me to that exact blissful point of pleasure before orgasm and stops. He holds me at the edge of ecstasy for what seems like hours. Teasing me. My body tries to let go; he knows and stops, every time, every fucking time. Occasionally he gently slaps my leg and whispers ‘no’ or shakes me with a ‘don’t’. It takes all of my mental ability to pull myself back into reality. He knows my body better than I do.

Climbing on top of me I put his cock in my mouth and he goes down on me. He has a fantastic cock and I love taking him, connecting with him, licking it, sucking it, and rubbing it. I can taste his precome which sends my senses wild. Hulk barely needs to put his mouth to me; just gently licks me, breathes on me. It’s insanely good. Rolling onto our sides we continue exploring our boundaries with our mouths.

I don’t think I can do this.
An hour or so has passed. I don’t think I have every been this horny in my life. It’s painful

 Lying on my back hulk sits up and puts his lips to my swollen clit and inserts a finger into my incredibly wet pussy. I can tell this is going to be different and that he is allowing me to let go. BOOM it’s instant. I know I’m groaning, shaking and that my muscles have all stiffened -but I am not present in the moment. I am floating on another cloud, a beautiful cloud that has electric volts and complete silence. Hulk doesn’t let me recover; my cloud gets higher, softer and bigger. My third orgasm is like a lightning bolt of pleasure.

Hulk waits for my orgasm to start winding down and them slams his cock all the way in me, he immediately starts grinding into me. I roll into another orgasm, a deeper orgasm, more connected than the others.

Inside out and upside down

Saturday 5th May 2013

What a week!!! My body has experienced more orgasms this week than in my entire sexual life. Hulk has magically transformed sex from intercourse into something else; something he explains best ‘We don't have sex, we have something else that doesn’t have a name yet’.

Sex is not only those moments that involve two bodies’ intertwined with another. It is every smell, sight and texture. It is the taste in my mouth. It is the blood pumping through my veins with force. It is the various forms of orgasm, not just the one concentrated around my sexual home. It is not only the touch but also the sound of his fingers & palms rubbing my body. It is the touch of his hair on my stomach or his firm hand holding me in place. It is sharing me completely with him. It is feeling freezing the next day and remembering the touch to my body that took my breath away. It is the touching of a keyboard and remembering him typing his fingers tips inside me. It’s lips and hands, tongues and fingers, mouth and skin, hard and soft, sane and insane, beautiful and tortuous, sweet and salty, inside out and upside down.

After a hot swim in the rain I shower and get ready for bed. Hulk follows me. I am already in bed when Hulk tells me to lie on my stomach so he could give me a massage

‘Just relax and go to sleep if you want’ – SURE!!!

His hands travel my entire body – my back, legs, feet and back up again. Changing his pressure but remaining constant with his momentum, its mere minutes before my body craves him.

For me, being horny is a series of tiny electric shocks centred inside and around my pussy; they expand further out towards my legs and stomach. I always get the urge to cross my legs and put pressure on my erotic spots, my pelvic muscles clench. Getting hornier, it all starts aching, a dull ache that travels around my body -  ironically its very sensual and enjoyable.

Hulk feels my body craving and gently places a kiss on my lower back, the small dimple at the bottom of my spine. He lies on my back with his cock between my legs. He enters me … WOW!

This is a serious sex episode. It is unbelievable.
We trial the we vibe out again. We play around with some lube. We end up in new positions.

The Head Board on his bed sounds like it is going to smash through the wall.

Afterwards, my body feels like it has been pleasured to its extreme.
Fragile and exhausted. Relaxed and happy.

Last time sex

When I wrote this, I concentrated on only one part of my evening with Hulk.
It was a marathon! It was incredible! I remember it!

Time got the better of me the following morning and this is all I managed to write.

Keeping this 100% authentic and unfortunately not doing the evening any justice -
This is just a small part of the adventure we had that evening.

Friday 3rd May 2013

My orgasm starts before it actually starts. There is a stretch of time when I know it’s building. A warm, tingling pressure sensation travels through my body. Like a sneeze, I feel it coming and the release is just amazing. My toes curl and my entire body shakes and convulses, trembles. I am noisy tonight. I feel like I have completely come apart and put back together in the initial climax. I feel my muscles contracting. My back arches in the pleasure. Hulk continues. I know he is going to. Pleasure continues to travel through my body as he keeps giving and I can feel my body building a storm. Static electricity building to lightning. My body is on fire. Strike. Strike. Strike. Strike.

Hulk is using his mouth, his finger, and the wevibe [a sex toy I have brought with me]
I have no idea what he is doing. The strikes are hitting me hard. Clit and G. Coupled. Intense waves of pleasure on top of each other.
FFFFUUUCCCKKKKKKKKKK!

When my mind catches up with my body I look at Hulk who is sitting on the floor, leaning against the wall, watching me. I have to bring myself back to reality quickly. I want him. I roll over and start playing with his cock as he sits there. He stands and puts himself into my mouth. This is awkward as I am lying on my stomach. I sit up. I like having his cock in my mouth. Really like it. I like his taste and his form. Makes me extremely horny. I can feel myself getting wet again. My pussy on fire. I’m craving him inside me.

When he enters me, the initial deep connection of our body’s sends shivers through me.

All day foreplay

Wednesday 1st May 2013

Hulk has been sending me erotic text messages all day. Fucking my mind. It’s such an genuine sensation that I’m certain he is truly fucking me through the atmosphere. I go through waves of extreme horniness and have to constantly mental slap myself back into reality. My day is filled with meetings, each cannot go fast enough.

I pick up Thai for dinner on my way. I’m not sure if he likes Thai – I’m not sure what he likes actually. Sitting in the restaurant waiting for our order I get a rush of fire through my body, a hot flush paired with nerves, intense hormones *another mental slap. Arriving to his house I let myself in, I say ‘Hi’ before noticing he is on the phone. Mindless – I hope whoever is on the other side of the call didn’t hear me. I am not sure if anyone knows about me.

After dinner Hulk lies on the couch and I remain seated at the table. I fight against myself to keep my distance. I know he likes to look directly at me when talking. Conversation trickles over our day and general life so I’m a little thrown when he says ‘I want to tell you what I am going to do to you tonight’ .. WOW! Confusion! He tells me he is going to push my body further than four orgasms and he wants me to know, to be prepared. I can understand why he warns me, my body flips out and he needs me to be ready.

Hulks touch sends me wild. As soon as he lays his hand of my hip I can feel the heat travelling in my body. Working his hands all over my body he grabs at my skin, kneading it, using more force than usual, he gets more intense, rougher. I feel his mission through his body. He is focussed.

He explores my pussy with his fingertips then presses his palm on my clit and inserts his fingers, I feel his mouth. It feels incredible and it doesn’t take long before I can feel my body getting ready, craving and connecting. All my muscles go tense, beginning with my legs and ending with my back. My back arches I lift my pelvis off the bed like I am forming a bridge. I stop breathing as pleasure travels through my body expanding in waves from my clitoris. It travels like a rippled explosion. My mind goes. Nothing can bring sense, nothing makes sense, there are no thoughts– I am in a state of meditation. I have no idea how many orgasms I travel with Hulk, how many he pleasures my body with. I have lost conscience, I can’t determine whether they get bigger after the second or remain constant – It doesn’t matter to me, my body, mind and soul love it. Extreme pleasure. Ecstasy in the purest form. A drug.

I feel dizzy as I enter back into the world. My body is gently shaking uncontrollably. Hulk lies next to me and watches. I wonder if he finds my reactions weird. I would. I do. He enters me in missionary and the feeling of his hard cock inside me feels complete. Moving between positions we hit a spot for both of us, I am lying on my back with him kneeling at a right angle between my open legs, resting his hands on my knees he penetrates deep. There are no words between us during sex, we can feel it. This orgasm comes on quickly and without time for my body to be prepared. The vibrations are centralised to my pussy and powerful enough to send my legs shaking and stiff, this one feels relaxing, I hear myself moan, Hulk stops moving and holds himself deep inside me. When Hulk comes it is with force and all over my stomach. I enjoy feeling his body shuddering against me. I like his moan.

Later that night Hulk puts his head to my stomach; laying with one arm loosely over my stomach he had felt my pulse heaving. I had felt it too. Pounding, not fast, STRONG.

This is real ...

Hulk and I are completely open about sex. We lay in bed and talk about it afterwards. We talk about it during the day.

Following the night before Hulk needed to understand how it was different for me - I'm sure he already knew, he wanted words.

The Awakening

I am new to this.

Not to sex, let’s clear that up. I have never ‘blogged’ anything in my life. I have never captured my life in a diary, I travelled the world without recording a sentence in a travel journal and I don’t keep love letters. I have never had a story to tell, well one worth writing about anyway.

I have no idea what I am doing, at all. But something within me wants to write this down. This is 100% genuine. This is my interpretation of the most amazing sex I have had.

This was written 6 weeks ago, when we first meet. I have weeks of notes both hand written and typed, screens shots of text messages and a few fantasies – all, I am going to share.

Monday 29th April 2013

The messages during the day hammer my body, my sexual being and my nerve endings. They have the ability to distract me completely from the task at hand, my work and my income. My pelvic sensations on full alert, the nerves, the pain, all getting swollen and ready – It’s actually fucking intense, I can feel everything - It’s there. This is just the beginning; I then have to drive to Hulks house. The drive sets everything to its heights. I get wet. I get excited. I think of everything, his presence, his touch and his ability to talk my soul out of my head, to question myself.

Arriving at Hulks house bound with enthusiasm of what is to come; he is in the shower after being at the gym (Hulk). I want to quickly open the bathroom door, let him know that I am there. I say it’s so that he doesn’t get a fright when he walks out, but I’m not sure if that’s my entire reason. There is a steam-fuzzed mirror that allows me to see his physique, see his shoulders and back, smell the soap. Intense. There are mirrors all over his house.

He leaves the bathroom only covered in a towel, walks to me plants a kiss, a welcome ‘Hello’. But that’s it… Hulk cooks dinner; I feel he likes being independent. The evening is filled with conversation that is not ‘general’ chitchat, there is no ‘tell me about your day’, very deep – It’s not light conversation, it hardly ever is.

Laying in bed the magnetic connection is instant. His hand finds my upper leg and starts rubbing, pulling, and tickling. His touch is enough to send my sexual home into spasm. It draws me in. He is hypnotic. Hulk rubs my entire body, over my legs, my mound, up to my boobs and back down my legs to my feet. It’s a fluid movement with perfect force that he repeats. All my sensations are flowing, emotion is travelling through every inch, and every pore is opening – wanting him. Every nerve is on fire.

Everything is connecting between us; it’s almost a spiritual connection. This is exactly where I want to be, my body is almost at a level of pain, it’s craving. I can feel his want, I know he likes to please me; there is nothing that could distract him at this moment. He is in as element as he starts playing with my inner. He starts by gentling rubbing around my clit, rubbing it between my skin folds, thumping his palms on it. Tickling. Rubbing. Using a forceful and concentrated pressure. Every touch confuses me, as I get to a stage of powerful frenzy he changes things, I can never predict his next trick, it’s all exciting.

I am already at a level of bliss and as he starts kissing my stomach I’m stretched further into pleasure. I can feel my body taking over as his tongue pushes between my legs. He starts sucking and flicking with intention and force. I loose myself. My body takes over. My mind is gone. I am in a place that only he can put me and only he has the mental control to pull me out. First my legs tremble, my limbs are stretched and I’m clenching the sheets and my eyes closed tight. Pleasure. Everything intensifies as he continues, not allowing my body to recover from any orgasm, he pushes my boundaries through it, testing. There are continuous gushes of electrons through my body, if I could track them, I would. Orgasm on top of orgasm my body starts getting confused, is this fucking, even possible? I stiffen, my back arches, and I scream and roll away – that fine line between extreme pleasure and pain.

How long it takes me to return to the moment, I have no idea. Pins and needles paired with ecstasy run through every veins. I shake uncontrollably. He enters me. The desire of wanting him inside me helps to relax my body from the previous mind altering orgasm(s). After a while we move from the bed to the balcony. There is a sense of intimacy yet the feeling of being in public. This excites me and he knows it. Neighbours merely need to glance out windows, strangers on the street just need to gaze upwards. My head is lowered and banging of the glass panels of the railing as he pounds me from behind. This feels amazing. We are not looking at each other yet the excitement and intimacy travels through touch. Hulks breathing increases, the strokes are getting shorter and more intense. He removes himself and quietly groans deeply and shutters as he releases all over my lower back.

My body is exhausted, my mound swollen – I could go again!! That feeling.
That can’t be normal.

I think that, but know my body and mind couldn’t go through that again.
Until we woke up at 3am anyway.

This is my story ...

I meet a guy online.

He is my Hulk. I am his Diva.

Our few rendezvous so far have been mind blowing. Sex as I knew, has been transformed.

I need to write about it. 

A true story, based on real experiences ... Lets see where it goes.

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